so i went to the church and confronted the former pastors wife who by now was the elected pastor of the church. i said to her what went on and asked her if what the man was saying about her was true. "i hear the real reason your husband was fooling around on you was that you refused to allow him to have sex with you" i said and then i asked the question,"is this true?" with tears in her eyes she said yes it is true.............well i did not need to hear any more and i just gave up right there on the spot............and i sank further in despair. i sank so low that i had come to deny many things and to deny the virgin birth of JESUS CHRIST was most serious. i went into occult, magic ritual, black magic, and satanism. i was an adulterer, a thief, a petty criminal. i thank the LORD that in spite of all of this that he watched over me and protected me from my own stupidity many times. many times i engaged myself in things which if caught would have been in prison such as embezzlement from the gas station i was managing which eventually got me fired. and drug use such as cocaine and heroin and opium etc. GOD saved me from all of this stuff, so that i stand before GOD today in this mission THE ISRAEL OF GOD INTERNATIONAL HOUSE OF PRAYER as a soldier-saint for GOD. i give GOD all the glory and praise for this. it is a complete miracle that i am even alive. i remember snorting cocaine right off the table in a bar in LAS VEGAS. i got quite a thrill when i committed a crime and was able to get away from it. what i forgot was that i hadn't actually gotten away with anything because you see everything i did was recorded by the holy angels. this slide into the living hell was marked with poaching deer and even rustling animals right from farmers fields and the list was endless of the bad kharma i had racked up for myself. the homeless life which i was reduced to ended me up in various men's shelters around the country and i went from deep trouble to deeper despair for a very long time.