i found out that hatred cannot be the motivator. and this was the motivation that was haunting me from the core of my being. hatred is the same as murder. a murderer cannot inherit the KINGDOM OF GOD. with such daemon going about in there - there can never be peace. MOSES had it in his heart that he would free his fellow HEBREWS from the bondage in EGYPT. so he took actions which got him exiled into the ARABIAN wilderness under the teachings of JETHRO the high priest of MID-I-AN. you see MOSES took matters into his own hands and this resulted in murder. he killed an EGYPTIAN who was oppressing a HEBREW slave. this act got him in the desert until he was in his 80's before he was ready to go fourth and do it GOD'S way. hatred wants people to take matters into their hands. to take vengeance when vengeance belongs to the LORD. it is his word which is the sword. for all must give account someday to see how they measure up. what a change, which has begun within my being. and finally now i can tell this story so that others can be helped from my experiences. then GOD can use me to help others.............................no, hatred cannot do it only the LIVING WORD can. that is the very word which gives us life and we are living breathing organisms who can consciously worship our creator.